Saying goodbye to Kimberly

This was a tough one.  You don't really take photos at a celebration of life or a funeral.  I mean, at mine I hope people do because quite frankly I hope it's a party FOR TRISTAN... not me.  I hope he is loved on, celebrated and knows he has a family long after I'm gone.  I don't want a bunch of sadness or tears... better yet - let's skip all of that and just have some funny stories.  Hopefully, the really juicy ones go to the grave with me. LOL

But we did go.  And we didn't make T wear buttons... instead he got to choose and that is EXACTLY what Kim would have wanted.  Davis looked SO snazzy though!

The service was beautiful... and very formally which quite frankly worked in my favor because I didn't shed many tears.  

Afterwards a large group of people headed to Ruth Ann's house.  Tristan got to be with both of the Davis'

and play with Oliver... the Coggeshalls' new pup!

so it kind of helped with the sadness.

I think the kids held up ok.  Sometimes it's hard to tell.  Lon and Holt held their own and hopefully, they were pleased with how things went.  Just hard to meet all of those expectations and it's hard to summarize someone's life in a few short hours.

We had a nice relaxing evening at home, and in the morning had a bright and early soccer game.  Mimi and Daddy Howard came to cheer on Tristan and it was SO NICE OF THEM.  I miss my family so much and when people do things like that it really is special.

I don't think I have fully let Kim's passing sink in.  I never really saw her that much so I keep having to remind myself that I can't text her. I can't ask her any advice.  There are no more boat rides, jumping (or falling) off the doc.  Tristan's lake-mom is gone.  My niece and nephews lost their mom. Everything has changed and I think I'm somehow in denial.   

I don't know what tomorrow holds.  There are big things ahead and I'm trying to stay at the foot of the cross - doing what He wants me to do versus taking the easy way out.  I trust you, Lord.  I'm scared... but I know you have gone before me.  I have hope.

Rest in peace Kimberly, you will always be honored and loved.  See ya in the sunset, see ya in the sunset.