I miss you so much... and you are still here

It's weird to miss someone when they are still alive.  My mom called me at 12:22am... and was chatting like it was 1 in the afternoon. Then we chatted the next day...in the afternoon and laughed about it.


I see quite the difference in myself - ha! I was dead asleep in these!


These moments are all I have left of my best friend in the whole world so I quickly sat up and started chatting.


and sometimes I even get her smiling and laughing.


I know the day is coming when I won't get anyone to her mind, but I know I will always be someone to her heart. I love you Mama.  Wish I could afford to be by your side every day and night. I would do your nails and your hair and have dinner with you... well you refuse food so I would have ice cream with you. I would remind you of old stories, and hold your hand.

I miss our every day talks and laughs. I don't miss your worry over me, it always made me sad BUT now having a child of my own, I understand it basically automatic.

Thank you for loving me with all you've got for 54 years.  I don't know how many days there are left, but any day that you will pick up the phone, I'll remind you that you are simply my favorite human... and will forever be grateful that God chose you as my mom.


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