You lived the dash well Mama. You made the most of that dash in between those two dates. You were kind and funny and caring. You ALWAYS had time for me, gave me your all. So many memories flood my mind, and I'm thankful for each and every one.
I'm grateful that Kelly and Lee were with you. I'm grateful that I had last weekend with you. That you help my hands, and my face and told me you loved me. I'm grateful that you still new me. When I got home I begged God to take you every single night. And when He did, I cried out because I wanted you back.
I don't know how to stay here without you. You were the ONE person that loved me unconditionally, only as a mom can. I'm glad it happened in December. It's my favorite month for so many reasons.
On your birthday, this year I will spend with friends but going forward, I will serve. I might even get a t-shirt made. I will give and I will be kind every Dec 11, it will be my floating holiday and I will do something.
Got these from Poolsie, she loves you SO much!
And this note from Kar:
See, you lived your dash SO WELL!
I bought this painting, well you did, I used your card... and it's my last Christmas dec from you. I figured you needed my help. It's Christmas, it's KY all wrapped into one.
I don't have many words right now, but I will write more. I'm gutted. I'm lost. I'm heartbroken. But I'm SO happy for you. MOM YOU HELD JESUS!!!! I cannot even imagine.
And just so you know, I shaved those chin hairs like I promised. I prayed with you. Had your Last Rites read and we played Barry Manilow, Christmas songs and On Eagles Wings. It was beautiful, and you were ready. You fought hard to tell me you loved me - on the last day you spoke... you got it out. Just for me. I'm so thankful. The Hospice Nurse send when you heard my voice you had a huge smile on your face and your eyebrows went up. That makes me SO happy. You knew it was ok to go and you KNEW how much I loved you. I hope when you saw Grandma, and Gramps and Uncle Johnny and Carol and everyone else... that it was the biggest party. I don't know who we will be together in Heaven, I know it will be different. It makes me SO sad to think of it being different BUT... I know God, I trust His heart and His plan. It will be better.
Even included you on my card! Don't love it... but I didn't care that much this year. Just wanted you to be a part of it.
Online post to friends and family:
Ladies and gents... Margie Cimildora Mazzeo has gone home to be with Jesus! I rejoice with her, because there is no greater joy than knowing that she is at rest, finally healed and with my Gram, Gramps, Uncle Johnny, Carol, Storm and so many more that have gone before her. My eyes fill with tears just thinking about her last breath here, sitting near Lee, and holding Kelly's hand then in an instant, she was wrapped in the arms of Jesus! I know she heard my voice every time I called, she fought to tell me she loved me every single time. Dementia tried to steal her, but her love for us, and for you allowed for her to still know us, tell us she loved us, and make silly faces... she was still so funny.
Her absence feels overwhelming, she was my best friend and confidant. I don't know how to live without her, I really don't. But, I promised her I would figure it out. My friend Connie is coming over tonight to watch her favorite Hallmark movie and eat chips and dip. I added two cardinals to my Christmas trees because she was convinced that a cardinal visit was a visit from someone in heaven... and I'm going to cling to that.
Her obituary will be out soon, but in the meantime, I know everyone isn't sure what to say and probably wants to DO something. I can only speak for myself, but I don't need a thing BUT you can do something for HER.
Tristan and I started RACKing people years ago and we started doing it with her too, and it was her favorite Christmas tradition. We would pay for the person behind us in line and leave this card. Or, we would go to a restaurant and buy all of their wrapped goodies and then walk around and deliver them to tables. People were shocked and touched. So, if you want to know what you can do for me or Tristan... do something in her honor. You can let a car go in front of you, you can hold a door, buy someone a coffee, buy a homeless person a meal or give them a sweater. Pick up a piece of litter (she hated littering!), adopt a cat, call someone and tell them you love them. Doesn't matter, just be kind. My mom was the most kind person on the planet, a second mom to say many and it was the greatest gift she gave to our world. I'd love to hear about it too, just knowing that something nice was done, in her name... would mean the world to both of us.
Fly high mama, I will miss you for the rest of my life but I am forever grateful that God chose you to be my mom and Tristan's Grammy. We are better people for knowing you and anything good in me came from you. I'll be seein' ya!!!
My Father’s house has many rooms; if that were not so, would I have told you that I am going there to prepare a place for you? And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come back and take you to be with me that you also may be where I am. John 14: 2-3
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