I don't know how to say goodbye but I honored you the best I could
So nice to see family... but so hard, because I knew these three days seeing my mom, would be her last. I begged God to take her, but he didn't. Instead He gave me 3 fun days with her. Laughs and stories and hand holding and praying and kisses. These moments were HARD... but I'm so thankful I had them. NOTHING has been unsaid. I washed her face, cleaned out her mouth, kissed her a million times. I shaved and got rid of any trace of a chin hair (hey, I promised!), prayed with her, laughed with her and sang to her. I kissed her hands and her face. I rubbed her head and her hands and fed her the best I could. I let her sleep and fought for conversations when she was awake I called friends, and sisters and sang songs and danced and did anything I could to get a smile on her face. I don't know what I'll write when she's actually gone. I don't know how to be on this earth without her but I promised I would find a way. I brought Grandma's rosery beads and she lis...