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I miss you so much... and you are still here

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It's weird to miss someone when they are still alive.  My mom called me at 12:22am... and was chatting like it was 1 in the afternoon. Then we chatted the next day...in the afternoon and laughed about it. I see quite the difference in myself - ha! I was dead asleep in these! These moments are all I have left of my best friend in the whole world so I quickly sat up and started chatting. and sometimes I even get her smiling and laughing. I know the day is coming when I won't get anyone to her mind, but I know I will always be someone to her heart. I love you Mama.  Wish I could afford to be by your side every day and night. I would do your nails and your hair and have dinner with you... well you refuse food so I would have ice cream with you. I would remind you of old stories, and hold your hand. I miss our every day talks and laughs. I don't miss your worry over me, it always made me sad BUT now having a child of my own, I understand it basically automatic. Thank you for lov...
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HAPPY 50TH Deadra!!

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  We did our best to surprise her and I think it worked!! That was fun!!!!
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Just like that... I have an Junior in high school

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It took about 10 "smile or we will just keeeep taking this picture" to get this... then I threw in this! Cuz that's funny! Look out TCA, here he comes! Father, I know who he CAN be, help me to breathe life over my son. Help me to encourage and cheer him on. I know my role is changing, and I'm trying to let him fail, let him choose.. give me self control to allow this... and catch him when needed. I know You love him more than I do... just doesn't seem possible but I know it's true. Draw him to You Lord, he needs a strong faith to make it in this world!!!!!!!!!  
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Best, Worst Day

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  Wasn't any other Sunday... my Community Group agreed to join T and me at Dallas Life. It was so fun to introduce them to all of our friends there. In the middle of the service, Iris asked T if they could talk. He knew.  HE KNEW it was over. Watching him stress and process was utterly heartbreaking. I told him he could have Holt come and get him. He chose to stay. I told him how much I loved him. We all prayed. We got home, and it was done.  No real reason and I think that was the most painful part.  I don't know if she just couldn't tell him why... or if she didn't know. He left with friends.  A few hours later, he called me utterly devastated.  Driving (very unsafely btw) and I begged him to pull over and I would take an Uber to him and drive the car home. He threatened terrible things.  When he got out of the car, his very tall, very broken heart just fell into my arm. He cried for hours, and I begged God to take it away.  he didn't.  But...
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Trooper is famous!

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I miss my Mama... even when I'm standing right in front of her

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 Zach and Sol took the kids to see Mom. I haven't heard how it went yet but i know she loved the hugs, because I know her. And what is left of her mind... I know that it still rings true. She loves her family! But when I took T to see her on Tuesday, my heart was broken. She's frail. She's confused. I only stayed two hours. And as I kept looking at her I realized that these are my final days with my mom. Nothing has been unsaid, but it's still SO hard. I miss her. I miss telling her secrets and complaining and laughing. I miss inside jokes and her visits and her meatballs. I miss her laughter, her "Julie Elizabeth!" when I was about to do something crazy. I miss her worry and concern. I miss her. I got up and kissed her goodbye, knowing this might be the last.  As I walked out of the room, I heard her say "I love you Julie Elizabeth". I quickly ran back in, hit record on my phone and said "say it again" and she said "what?!" so I ...
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T is at the lake making memories... and so am I!

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 I'm over here making memories... Trooper has just stated pooping on dog walks. After 5 years... he decided now... it's time. LAAAAWD. I no longer have a fun fact about him! LOL Played Pickleball with Connie, Lauren and friends! But T was off living his best life at the lake! I don't miss the entire weekend being consumed by the lake but it was fun. I hope he and his friends are enjoying every second!!
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YAYA 2025 - BOSTON!

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This one would lose her head if it wasn't attached... But I found her at BOS! We quickly grabbed Franky and we were off! We found the rest of the girls at the Dagny Hotel and we were off to the Barking Crab!! We ordered food to split... Chrissy's was the size of a lemon - our fish tacos were huge and yummy!! Just missing Poolsie, but shellfish make her sick, so I guess we saved her life! After a quick change.. we walked to CHEERS! It is SO small, but so fun.  We made the most of our situation and laughed - A LOT!   The next Day we got up, grabbed coffee and headed off to walk part of the freedom trail! This pic should be last, it's the church where Paul Revere rang the bell. So many lies have been passed down over time.  Like Paul didn't yell "the British are coming" it actually made me said because I like to run up the halls and say that when the UK is arriving! This guy refused a statue or monument without African American soldiers because it didn't depi...
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