Lord, I'm so thankful for your GRACE



We have very few REALLY bad nights.  We had two in a row.  

And it was painful I cried, he cried.  Just awful.

A lot of emotion to navigate right now and I'm trying to let him go where I need to let go and support where I need to support. 

Sometimes it's hard to draw that line.

Anyway, we had a tough one but ended up here...




I couldn't love him more.  I am SO proud to be his mom!!

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