Goodbye 11...

 HAPPY 12TH BIRTHDAY TRISTAN!!


I'm pretty disappointed in myself... I couldn't' get the log in to work so I couldn't do my annual last day of being "X" yo. post.  I mean, I'm not even sure what I would have said.  Maybe that it's been a REALLY hard year and I am SO proud of how you have persevered.  Maybe I would talk about how much I have seen you grow and mature at a new school with (some) new friends and a TON of challenges and ONE NASTY TEACHER (we won't name names... WEBBER!!!)

But truly, I just want you to know what a gift it is to be your mom.  I get it now, I understand how my parents used to stare at me.. and the loss they felt any time I walked out the door.  They were learning to let me go WHILE trying to enjoy the moment.

I think they make teens mouthy though, so it's easier to PUSH YOU out the door to college.  I'm not sure I'll ever want that... I'm just not.

I took this and you were annoyed.  Actually, this was like the 6th shot because all I could get was that cheesy "I hate that you make me do this smile" but I took it.

I needed a second to inhale and exhale knowing that this was it.  We were (thankfully) onto another year - more growth, changes, challenges, and so much more joy.


Everything I do, I bring to the Lord and then make the best choice I can... for YOU. Being your mom is the most important job I have and I don't take that lightly.

I know I annoy you, embarrass you and sometimes you wish I would just go away.  Well, I'm not going to.  I will be here, for the rest of your life whenever you need me.  When you don't want me because somehow, someway, I think every kid needs to know he has someone on his team.

Happy Almost your Birthday Buddy!  I hope 12 is your best year yet!!

I love you, Mom


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