Goodbye to twelve

(didn't post on time, ignore "tomorrow because today is 1/17)

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Well, it's official.  Tomorrow I will have a teenager. Tomorrow.  How can this be?  You were 5 ... yesterday.  I know everyone says this goes by fast.. and they weren't kidding.

 tomorrow... 
today.. you are still my baby!


I don't love this age.  It's a lot of eye rolls, annoyance, "go away-s, why are you ALWAYS around?" and did I mention eye rolls? But it's part of it and regardless of how it feels in the moment, I KNOW how blessed I am to be your mom! There is nothing, absolutely NOTHING I would rather give my time and resources to.

As I sit here and reflect on the past stages, I'm so proud.  

You are just a GREAT human Tristan Holt Barber.

I could post a thousand pictures and funny moments, but the most important thing to say is that you are beautiful inside and out.  You are questioning faith, and God, and friends and me and figuring out how and why your body and mind are changing.  I know you need me less and want me around even less than that but I know better.

You need to hear that I love you. That I'm proud. That you are worthy. That you MATTER.  These next years won't be easy but I promise you, I will always always be your biggest cheerleader. I will ALWAYS listen, I will always pray and I will always be brave enough to challenge you to be better.  You do you boo... I love you, Mom

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