Christmas fun

 T went to a birthday party on Saturday night and somehow I got him to text me his pic with Iris Bell. I think they like each other a little!!



Saturday we had a Christmas party at the Lewis residence!

So fun and so nice to hang out with my friends!!

T had some much needed time with his boys too!



Then, I let T drive Noah home... God help us, we survived!

JK - he's a great little driver and I cannot believe he will be off on his own in a couple of weeks!


Then, my brave boy asked Iris on a date!  

It was both of their first dates and it was just the CUTEST!!

He came with flowers and a Christmas gift in hand. 
I was very proud of him and did my best to be quiet in the back seat. 
I failed... but I tried.


Then, we went to 11am service with the Rhodes' family...


and ended up seeing the Gards!!




Thomas invited us to his parents house and it was we were very nervous...not knowing what to expect but they were so easy. I met a lot of Thomas' family and of course, Molly "babysat me" and Jackson and the boys kept their eyes on T.

The annual tradition is the button man... and you get this cool thing to take home. 
I love mine!!!



Then, he's off.... and I'm home in a quiet house with decorations and dogs...






My reminder of Hoopes Park and where I'm from


Names of God and animal tree


Time has just gone by too quickly...



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I love my snowglobe of Santa holding baby Jesus. I know he's not real... but I love the point it makes... EVERYONE bows to the Maker of the universe!!! 


Christmas night my boy was back!  We opened gifts and laughed.

Thomas and Molly did something wonderful for both of us.  Thomas took Tristan shopping to buy me gifts. AND THEY PAID FOR THEM. I'm still not quite ok with that.. but I have to learn to receive and just say thank you. Tristan got me a Lululemon jacket (my first every anything from there) and a necklace. I can't even begin to imagine how much money but I just have to say thank you.  

It was humbling and I hope it taught Tristan the importance of giving. From the heart hopefully... but giving nonetheless.


Then, we watched a movie by the fire!


and T loved the fire... but got sick of the movie



So I ended up watching him play FIFA. 
Find by me, I'll spend time with him however he wants...


and the hardest thing is my mom.  She's convinced that I'm coming there. 
Coming to move her to Texas and that she's going to live with me forever.


Everyone says just to go along with her.  
So, I lie to her face and it breaks my heart a little every single time.


And there isn't a lot to talk about. We say I love you A LOT.  We laugh. We tell stories. 
I'm losing her every single day and I know that.
I try not to say "remember I told you..."
I just say it again and then sometimes she says "ooooh you told me that!"
and I tell her I don't care, I'll tell her 100 times.

She's getting "better" and may or may not be out of skilled nursing.
She may or may not know me in a month.
She may or may not be on the right meds, or in a Medicaid bed, or all of the other intricacies that have to happen... so much to worry about and due but I try hard not to focus on any of it. I try and soak up every single moment.

This Christmas was beautiful and hard. My boy is growing up and off on his own adventures and life. As he should be. I'm here to help (if needed), encourage, support and love him regardless of where he's at or what kind of mood he is in.

I'm slowly preparing my heart to say goodbye to my mom. I'm breaking and I'm building back up all at the same time. I don't know what 2025 holds, but I've survived another difficult year, I feel loved, seen and heard. My Community Group keeps me sane, Deadra keeps me sane at work.  Jesus holds me up every second of every day. 

Not sure what my "word" is for 2025... Go easy on me Abba... my hear is fragile. I know for sure, I need more of You.  And if you have time and could bring me a "person" and some physical healing... great.  If not, I'll just rest in knowing that You will carry me in whatever may come.

Merry, Merry Christmas Jesus.  Thank you for saving us!!

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